Today was an unusual day even though it was cold as ever with drizzle in the morning. (Nothing unusual in Bangalore) I woke up before the alarmed time of 7 ( thanks roomie) and was about to begin my usual morning chore when I was stuck by this thought!  OMG today is a HOLIDAY. EID.. Never had this thought come up in my mind yesterday, atleast I would have planned for today. Surprise tastes even better if it comes little delayed i think :) Anyways "sad" to see him leave for office as perfectly dressed robot as possible ! 

Coming to the "story" ..  Theres something weird with the blog. I start to snooze everytime i open to pen my first chapter. Buzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz ........................................................................ goodnight!

Lets IMAGINE !

Hi There! 
First, Thanks a heap for finding time to visit this blog amongst infinite other sites you probably could have visited and come out with satisfaction.

Here I am back to my secret hide-out place to share my inner thoughts to the world. Writing had never been a passion for me for I never was a good reader in first place. But something at my work and my life nudged me to find solace in writing blogs. I apologize for eating my own word of updating it every weekend ! Boo.. work is really getting on my head these days and happy that it isn't anything quite like it I had done before. Time will tell.

As my quiescent roomie, sits next to me relaxing on a "Crime" novel, a thought awakened me and here I am . You may call this as an after effect of watching "Finding NeverLand" or even term this to be weird , but .. I have decided to fulfill my deep buried wish of penning my own story.. Yup, you read that right. A story.

As children we dont give heed to all the imagination that we possess. Even the mundane looking traffic lights wont disappoint a child for he sees beyond the lights. Lights for him look nothing to what we see, lights not bound by its definitons. As an adult, we wish we retain atleast the slightest of imagination we once possessed. Imagination to free us from this chaotic and bound-by-law real world to which we have become slaves. Without imagination we no longer "live".

This is nothing of a prologue to my ambitious endeavour yet. Let me tell you that I have never been a fan of "Harry Potter", solely may be I miss to find a rational behind the story or may be i don't have the imagination to accept a story as a story.May this endeavour awaken the child in me , to imagine and free my soul and to live again !

The genre of the story is left to the reader ( if anyone else other than you :) ) to be decided for I havent yet made up my mind what the story would be about. I would add as and when I get time with a core storyline in place :) soon. Atleast it would refrain me from indulging in my favourite activity and ending up wasted with deep regret for having done so! Think you know what i mean....

So here it goes..


Prelude

Awakened by a thunderous sound, Schaum focusses his newly bought Canon 550 DSLR to the top of long chain of vehicles lined up on the only ghat road ,to see another land slide to have occured , marring the slightest of hope he had to reach the destination atleast by dusk. Having waited for more than 18 hours, he feels claustrophobic and wishes to stretch out of the SUV but fears the cold outside and curls up again in the cozy heated leather seats of the Q7.
An hour passed and there was another jarring sound which almost made the SUV shiver! Only this time Schaum woke up for real !

It was 4 am and cold .With his heart pounding fast , threating to rip the chest and jump out , he cleared his eyes and starred at the dark ceiling above with its grey shadows of a rusting fan. "Damn! It felt REAL" he told himself. A quick glance to his right and he saw roomie snoring and living the dream of his own!. After a dash of cold water and heavy muffler work ,he tried sleeping again.

--to be continued

What you want to be, you will!

For a change let me not  start with the cliche ! But yes it's been a while I had spent time here and this time its an inspirational video I got to see on my FB that nudged me to open this url ! Much to my earliers posts, I promise to myself not to sound sarcastic everytime i decide to post. But then the world , as harsh as it can be, pushes me to feel guilty when i finish with the post. Not this time :)

It feels sublime to open one's own blog and gaze wondering how one could have penned these thoughts.. Well this surprise is good.

Life had done 180 in the past 6 months, I mean literal 180, for there had been many significant changes both on and off record. Some worth the brag and some to be swiped under the carpet for good while pinning me right where it all began!

Life is the most cruel of all. It will shovel you to ground every time you try to stand and scuttle with your success every inch you get closer. Yet success has no secrets as they say. Its just winning one more time than you fail that counts. All it takes is to stand , stand that just one more time. Life never believes in stories, and success never believes in what can be done, but what has been done!  The more one has reverberations of these, the more closer he gets to success. All it takes is to prove your worth to the world and success follows.     
                                         

I say the above assertions to myself as I am in need, in need for a slight nudge to kick me off from my sedate life. For 23 odd years, I never had been under pressure to perform, nor to outrageously excel but then what I am now I owe to the support and encouragement I received from folks around me. Thats the silent catalyst one is in desparate need in the corporate world. For this one time i feel fortunate that I am having my right catalysts to keep me going and aim to excel.

Here is one of my favorite quote to part with this post,

“It is our choices that show what we truly are, far more than our abilities "

but its the choices that is the most difficult !

 For a change I have decided to blog my weeks learnings , experiences and my experiments with life every weekend and hope I stick to this regime in the upcoming posts. May be one day, when i would have long forgotten that I once had a blog page and me but curious to open my blog, I would alteast know my trail & my repertoire ! 

Later

Stairway to heaven!

Sitting idly on my cosy mattress surrounded by an army of ants, scavenging on leftover maggie from last night's dinner, a thought after the update from google buzz, provoked me to open up a long forgotten page on web...
yes its my so called blog.. ( or call it polambal place :P or watever)..and this time is a whole lot different mindset with which i have begun to pen my thoughts...

The most dramatic entry a protagonist can ever assume sure must go to "VeeJAi - the king of masses "( name changed as per request from Mr. V ) :P. ....Be it his 50 th or his debut he never tries to shy away from cliches.( or he never will) The saying of old wine in a new bottle does hold often too good for his movies, all but with a new heroin :P just for the audience's delight..

A song here and a fight there , our ears shoveled with hackneyed punch lines and gory romance scenes, this her"0" will one day go to Oscars for reason thats too obvious to even pen!!!. Why am I even trying to blog about this ? the ans: I "like" his movies...:P Sure go ahead with your opinion but.. if there is one her"0
" who could just pull up such movies with such panache..and never get bored doing that..thats him.. THE MAN

I'm dazed the way he continues to do such "projects" inspite of the tongue lashing from every page of the print media .. leave alone the movie critics.. So much hype surrounds his movies.. so much that even before its release, its a mass hit!!!.. add to that the glamor quotient it comes with and its a "sure" "hit" with the masses..

Wonder when will our masses wake up to the movies with real zeal for the love of arts, movies made with passion rather than for mass action!.Movies that inspire people rather than make them feel despair!!
 So much that it made me open my dusted blog again just to praise the her"0".!

No wonder ppl may get back with scornful vengeance, garrulous discussions juxtaposed with "Thala" and much more... Unless the industry wakes up to abrogate such films, we may never wake up and will always be the masses with less brain and be entertained by ppl with even lesser ones ....


Jai VeeJay.... :P



PS:
To whomsoever it may concern.....No intention of any kind of offense directed either implicit/explicit to the fans. To add more, each movie/genre caters to a particular audience and are appreciated for their own uniqueness. No comparisons can be ever drawn. :P

Punch Line : :P
Movies are meant to be seen and enjoyed!! not analysed and debated!! ...........

peace..

Life is a mystery to solve, not a problem to resolve

Hiya !

A recent conversation I had with GOD! Yup GOD.. read on....

God: Hello… Did you call me?
Me: Called you? No… Who is this?
God: This is GOD. I heard your prayers. So I thought I will chat.
Me: I do pray. Just makes me feel good. I am actually busy now. I am in the midst of something…
God: What are you busy at? Ants are busy too.
Me: Don’t know. But I can’t find free time. Life has become hectic. It’s rush hour all the time.
God: Sure. Activity gets you busy. But productivity gets you results.
Activity consumes time. Productivity frees it.

Me: I understand. But I still can’t figure it out. By the way, I was not expecting YOU to buzz me on instant messaging chat.
God: Well I wanted to resolve your fight for time, by giving you some clarity. In this net era, I wanted to reach you through the medium you are comfortable with.
 
Me: Tell me, why has life become complicated now?
God: Stop analyzing life. Just live it. Analysis is what makes it complicated.

Me: why are we then constantly unhappy?
God: Your today is the tomorrow that you worried about yesterday. You are worrying because you are analyzing. Worrying has become your habit. That’s why you are not happy.

Me: But how can we not worry when there is so much uncertainty?
God: Uncertainty is inevitable, but worrying is optional.

Me: But then, there is so much pain due to uncertainty..
God: Pain is inevitable, but suffering is optional.

Me: If suffering is optional, why do good people always suffer?
God: Diamond cannot be polished without friction. Gold cannot be purified without fire. Good people go through trials, but don’t suffer. With that experience their life becomes better not bitter.

Me: You mean to say such experience is useful?
God: Yes. In every term, Experience is a hard teacher. She gives the test first and the lessons afterwards.
 
Me: But still, why should we go through such tests? Why can’t we be free from problems?
God: Problems are 

Purposeful 

Roadblocks 

Offering 

Beneficial 

Lessons (to) 

Enhance 

Mental 

Strength.

Inner strength comes from struggle and endurance, not when you are free from problems.
 
Me: Frankly in the midst of so many problems, we don’t know where we are heading..
God: If you look outside you will not know where you are heading.. Look inside. Looking outside, you dream. Looking inside, you awaken. Eyes provide sight. Heart provides insight.

Me: Sometimes not succeeding fast seems to hurt more than moving in the right direction. What should I do?
God: Success is a measure as decided by others. Satisfaction is a measure as decided by you. Knowing the road ahead is more satisfying than knowing you rode ahead. You work with the compass. Let others work with the clock.
 
Me: In tough times, how do you stay motivated?
God: Always look at how far you have come rather than how far you have to go. Always count your blessing, not what you are missing.

Me: What surprises you about people?
God: when they suffer they ask, “why me?” When they prosper, they never ask “Why me”. Everyone wishes to have truth on their side, but few want
to be on the side of the truth.
 
Me: Sometimes I ask, who I am, why am I here. I can’t get the answer.
God: Seek not to find who you are, but to determine who you want to be. Stop looking for a purpose as to why you are here. Create it. Life is not a process of discovery but a process of creation.

Me: How can I get the best out of life?
God: Face your past without regret. Handle your present with confidence. Prepare for the future without fear.

Me: One last question. Sometimes I feel my prayers are not answered.
God: There are no unanswered prayers. At times the answer is NO.
 
Me: Thank you for this wonderful chat. I am so happy to start the New Day with a new sense of inspiration.
God: Well. Keep the faith and drop the fear. Don’t believe your doubts and doubt your beliefs. 

Life is a mystery to solve, not a problem to resolve! 

Many might reckon it to be a plagiarization of someone's fantasy chat but whatever it is, I am sure it should have made u ponder about yourself and answer your enshrouded uncertainities....atleast a little....

I must admit this is an abridged version of all that you can search on net! All about God ! Luck! Fate ! Destiny !!!

hmmm but wish I "had" this conversation for real !

Hope u liked this... Have a nice day :)

Tryst With Destiny !

Hi-to-al-o-u!...

Sitting idly at home, even my fingers have put on weight! Too lazy to type i started using a prototype speech to text convertor..My first attempt at that was awful.. so returned to old fashion key press text inputs now...While thumbing through the daily newspaper, one of my usual morning chore, something caught my eye and made me to not just skim through it but to read through which i seldom do :) . Yes the column about the "outrageously talented", as the article described, the great Roger Federer.

People say that when a man has the will , the will to reach and  remain at the top combined with the attitude of stop not till the goal is reached fueled by the motivation ,none can beat him.. .The apt person I can ever think of is Roger Federer.Having equalled Pete Sampras' record of 14 grand slams, his tryst with destiny came in the most unexpected of times one can ever imagine!. That it happened without having to combat formidable rivals like Nadal, Djokovic and that he had won only one fairly minor tournament in 2009 season is surely the will of the fate .....or is it....!

Things like these surely linger long in my mind. None can deny how supreme he is in his field for reining supremacy in todays competitive sports environment is quite a daunting task .Now any smidgeon of doubt one had for this swiss mans's ability on clay is settled once for all.  But ever wondered how he achieved this jewel? Yes having successively lost three finals at Roland Garros, he was able to pull this time without Nadal or any usual rival up against him... i wonder is this what people refer as luck? 

Still some ardent fans may argue he would anyways have won this time, i m skeptical for without his fate on his side that day things might have been different!...or same as i can put too ! ( ie losing in clay finals)!. It is this what we refer to as luck.. the TIME and LUCK on their side.. no wonder you would have guessed whom i am talkin about too by this time...

No matter how much effort u put in doin certain things., there s always an element of luck.. none can deny this too.. as the saying goes ......" Success is 99% hardwork and 1% luck".... i have sensed most of the time its that 1% which gives completeness and is hard to come by for some most of the time afterall LUCK has the uncanny nature of favouring those who dont depend on it~!

People quote sayin Hope and Wait is what keeps the earth spinning! but i cant say this for people who say this must have had that 1% with them.. obviously i m devoid of that now..Anyways i always cherish this line though it never happened to me " put in your 99% work, rest 1% is the gift u get coz of that!".. wish i never had that 99% completed or i depend on that 1% more!!! watever!.. As with Federer, how his tryst with destiny came in unusual time, its the patience which we all may be needing in times of this to see our tryst with destiny. Guess my tryst with destiny shouldn be long else my blogs will be flooded :)! anyways hope i conveyed the message to all the fortunates out there... beware our time too ll come!

Anyways to part with this post .. always remember to ........................."HAIL THE FORTUNATES"...!!!.. so long ...

NOSTALGIA !

Sometimes silence conveys more !

The great PSGII (sandwichians tea-kada-bench :)


The dreaded department building ..OooO


The bridge we seldom wish to cross.. though a beautiful one indeed at night




Truely " A HOME away from HOME"



The infamous & often misread sign board !


Hmmm.. I wonder how many r really looking at the Basketball court!!!



Caters to those who burn the midnight oil...


This is 4 d newbies ofcourse.




IM building


Part of " kaloori Salai" :)


The bridge again in its full glory




The mess of the masses :*)


True to its name it serves noodles with "GREEN" live beings sometimes... :)


Again the dept building to end the mood....


hope u liked it. comments r welcome.

A broken encephalon !

Hi-to-all-o-u! Welcome back after a bit of an uncertain hiatus...but anyways good to be online again penning my views. My ruthless mind is well described in a saying remembered in times when we wish it passed quickly... yes the saying " An empty mind is a devil's workshop" becomes the best phrase my mind can think of now. The numerous thumbing has indeed made my fingerprints vanish a little... thumbing whilst wishing for a glimpse of the ever so rarifying opportunity that brings hope to the hundreds of beings like me in search of something to make ends meet..ofcourse i mean the start to making a living on our own.. i mean the "JOB".


Sometimes i feel that may be its too early to spread wings or may be not...i wonder what! I hope to part with those thinkings for now wishing the convocation to be held on june 3rd will serve me better. The feeling of oneness that we shared during those days makes me feel how dramatic can human lives be. The life as a vicious circle reminds me of the giant ferries wheel that we board and strap on for a ride expecting nothing but the unexpected alone. The opportunity to converge with that mass again is a thought which is giving me sleepless nights.. those that as a child everyone ought to have experienced before a day like dewali or christmas awaiting for the dawn to signal the celebration to begin.


But i wonder how many fellow beings think like me.. Its not just another convergence we see. this is the day we receive the honour ...to honour our parents in turn.. The feeling what a parent derives cant be penned down with mere assimilation of my lexicon. sure we will experience it too later. People nowadays forget that things have to be used and people be treasured and not people to be used and things treasured!


Convocation day has always being synonymous with free food.. yes the food we earn( read steal) for catering to the guests who come to our hostel for dinner. While the beautiful sight of beautiful people( the other sex ofcourse :) ) bring joy to us , the sight of our staff coming along is when we start playing hide and seek, the game of life in some ways. After parting with the crowd i still remember how we would go scavenging for the leftover excess food like wild hyenas.

Those memories remind me once again how fast time flies past or .....once flew past!.. for now as i sit idly at home drafting my future plan, i begin to wonder how am i going to spend my days at home productivily. For quite some time my hostel had been my "home away from home" but not anymore. The same home i longed to stay longer on my short visits during holidays is proving a tough place to be in (idly). I wonder may be the interraction with my old friends during convocation will bring my parched mind some ray of hope but as always i expect nothing but uncertainity for i am still on that same ferris wheel ride like everybody else !. I hope someone out there finds my cry in the rain. So long mate. Later.

Last Night at the CORPORATION :( :) :(

As i sit munching on a chocolate cookie bought from the eerily deserted cafe at the CORPORATION ( the corp from now on) , i feel a sense of cold blood rushing in.. It was a day that i was almost every day thinking about,thinking it to come soon....now atlast i sit in my cube penning my last blog from the corp...A place where i saw strangers turn into friends and where i learnt the first professional way people chide too!!!,,. i still hear my laughs lingering in my head .. those were the days i spent staring spookily the monitors throwing on me some mesmerising random junk data patterns more like the notable ones from the movie Matrix .. those who teamed with me in the initial weeks at the corp should have noticed how i was a person so different that time than one now.. the credit surely goes to the corp for that change in me aided by this so called recession....

This night was strangely different for my lights at the cube had gone down.. only the brigtness of my laptop screen was now slightly marring the veil of darkness around me. Today i feel a tad slow to type too for my fingers have become lethargic after hours of filling forms and signing, completing the formalities of my LDO ( Last Day @ Office ).. sure enought it isnt still completed ...

The cube now has started reverberating with voices of homo sapiens involved in a dreaded alien language of VLSI.... talks of clock margins,, skews,... jitters... flipflops.. damn.. all these were driving me nuts.. but i sit ironically enjoying these, as this is my last day at corp after all !.. Not that i dont enjoy these but its just that as a saying goes.." Too much of anything is good for nothing""...

For one last time , i head for a stroll, keen to observe and take mental picture of the corp in its glory...The glory it basks in .. The glory which in my opinion is too gory from inside.. now u think , "Not again ! Another sarcastic writing !! Damn..wish i never read it.." cool... i wish to part with my sarcastic writing , atleast give a try from now onwards. so calm down...

One good thing that i can say that happened during my internship period is that i made more friends, some friends whom seem to share more of my passion and some who seemed to share more of my sorrows.. nonetheless its this truth that i am happy about in the end.... reminds me of one bollywood movie line " if the ending is not good... sure its not the ending.." certainly atleast this internship has taught me to ponder more, more to understand people and more about relationships....afterall happiness is a state of the mind ... having that i end my final blog from the corp with tint of smile on my face :)

A day @ the CORPORATION!

My apologies to all-o-u if i had sounded too sarcastic in earlier posts!....Now I am pretty excited to spill the beans atlast :). Inspite of signing NDA at the CORPORATION i still feel i can share much of what my routine monotonous tasks are about. Many people move with an aura of self accomplished complacent debonair, more gross to look at than anything in this world. No , i m not talkin abt any of my friends for they cant be if they were that way! .. but of one person who got all the attention one can ever deserve...name tats so popular u can even find somebody discussing in blogs...CORPORATION was filled with people whom u can either get inspired off or get pissed off..i had encouters with more of the latter to say the truth.. Amid this population surrounding me , there was a lonely duckling, waiting to make a mark, and yes that was me!

My routine tasks involved too much of an use of a product Bill Gates & Co had developed. Tasks that call for involuntary breaks because of their mundane nature. Anyways i had no issues with the so called project i was never "assigned" to but "associated" with till now. Desires to design and learn saw an end, seemed more like a light at the end of a tunnel, an endless horizon , a space so void of matter.,, i guess its my grey matter that has become void now!!!...

As i continue penning my blog, my task calls for an attention which i never longed to provide. A 20 mins of freedom marred by a week long solution starved problem which crops every now and then. As i timeshare with blog and my task, i feel good that it has afterall made me hone my timemanagement skill :)... A break to cater to my task now...brb

This part of my life is called " Internship"!

Hi to all-o-u!.. Its been quite a while since i hav written something of a feel good blog (as they call )...but anyways i say the truth ,mostly seeming to be paradoxical in nature... But truth strangely seems that way most of the time.. My internship which is abt to see an end on May 22 has given me so much meaning to many things i din know before...
i have loads of stuff to pen ,for my internship has been a part of life where i have seen so much, heard so much, learnt soo much... not abt processors or chips..... but about people and life...

With an enthusiasm of a newborn child endeavoring to stretch its tender fingers to feel the world for the first time, I started from my home awaiting the new journey of my life, my first flight alone!... Yes , it was a Jet. As many would have experienced , there was my family to send off. As i hopped into the cabin i was welcomed by an angelic airhostess who charmed me with her smile more of a grin as i nearly got flabbergasted!.

As the fight took off, there was this hard lump in my throat , born out off this strange experience. The flight seemed to dip a little, only then I realized how fast time has flown by.. (Flown indeed here..). Time for me to step into the Garden City as it was called once...s, its Bangalore where people say that a stone thrown will land 99% on software pro and where not hindi or kannada dominate as regional language but C++, Dotnet and stuff!... strange indeed!

As i sat by the window seat in a Red VOLVO bus costing me 150 bucks for a trip of 50 Kms to the city, I felt a land so strange run below my feet,for what it had to offer me in future reminded more of myself,,, one i couldnot guess!

There once i reached , got greated by schoolmate who has been so kind of a friend in fact till now, a friend because of whom i began to reinvent the meaning of trust, for betrayal had been the fashion with most of my friends!. A PG worth 6.5k no bigger than two dining tables is wat v could afford. Filling it with bed and stuff, I began to start my part of life called INTERNSHIP!...

Alighting from an auto i got my first glimpse of the CORPORATION....My first day as a corporate.. Damn it was soo good.. every thing has a place and everything in its place.. reminded me of japanese or (chinese) methodology.. With an id tag around my neck i felt as if i was on cloud nine for this seemed stranger because i always hated it while in col...New friends peeped in.. more managers.. and more importantly .. MORE WORK..:( got into my life....All this only for a week remained good then turned bad to worse for it headed into a vicious circle of boredom.

When it started , i thought it as a prelude for things on my plate to come..but not so....Jubiliant people all around me....(sounds of machines in work)....all what now i think was a blessing in disguise!.. Time passed with strong feelings of having missed the last semester..., the joy my friends there never chose to part , that ever so happy faces which i loved to bear but never could.....and boy that famously notorious class i was in... all felt like a lost compass for a mariner...

The job( more of a task assigned ) shattered my mind, ruined my hopes most importantly changed the course of my internship for it demanded more of physical strenous work than one that could have given to a mind athirst for knowledge , a challenge i wished for.. crap it couldnt get any worse...No issues with the work tough.. its the persona of the officials. the policies of the CORPORATION .. more importantly the economic situation to be blamed,. soo good to start yet so bad to end :( Interns for most part i guess are treated this way, used for temporary deeds and then spit out when done of deeds.
Dirty deeds sure doesn come cheap.....

more to follow..

Passion meets passion!

Ah.. Atlast I found out of the blue a human with interests similar to mine in a place I least expected to encounter. More in the following weeks to come.... But sadly this aint gonna stay for long as I am abt to quit the place I met that person :( .. I think sad enough for me to brag abt this for a change than abt my fate for upcoming blogs of mine...This in the end once again teaches me a lesson that you can never gauge a person easily for that keeps throwing on my plate ever so bigger surprises time and again....

Some where I belong

For some this blog may ring a bell or two but for the most part its what I have to say to all of you.......

When I began I had nothing to say and I got lost in the nothingness inside of me....
I was confused and I let it all out to find that I’m not the only person with these things in mind!!! But all the vacancy the words revealed is the only real thing that I’ve got left to feel as I have nothing to lose.

I just got stuck...hollow and alone
thinking the fault is my own, and yes the fault is my own!
I want to find something I’ve wanted all along, and thats
Somewhere I belong.

And I’ve got nothing to say as I can’t believe I didn’t fall right down on my face.
I was confused looking everywhere only to find that it’s not the way I had imagined it all in my mind ...,,so what am I???

What do I have but negativity because I cannot justify the way, everyone is looking at me.
Again and again I feel that the fault is my own, and yes its my own.. but still have to go on and on...

I am BACK !

let me first start by thanking u for coming back .. Yes i m back too with this blog... but unlike what u think its not me or you who is back but my fate is back.... wondering y this guy keeps writing melancholy blogs bragging abt FATE?? yes.. for reasons i m abt to explain u ll get to the bottom of this at the end..

Some people call it GOD , some people call it LUCK, i call it "FATE.". yes fate.. u read that right...for god is explained as one which gives us hope, the hope Obama chose to use wisely too and one i m in need....and luck is explained as one which aids at times ... But fate as i explain is one which challenges u... one that defines u, as for most part it cant be changed.. u need to alter ur course to win that.. no other go...and for the other part , it defines ur destiny...

Either u agree with fate decides destiny or destiny defines fate,, the truth abt fate and destiny is common.. NOTHING CAN BE CHANGED... for change is the only unchanging nature of fate which u cant change... !! thinking enough of talking abt change.. alright let me change topic for a change then....coming to the part which explores ways in which i was challenged by fate, the first in list would be my placement season.. boy -o-boy wat a season it was... passed for most part like a gentle breeze skimming leaves of the surface of cold uncharted pond... but to me my five years of col life was a strenuous voyage for which i m still is search of destination.. as many would have heard , its a journey into the unknown...

You put in the best of the efforts awaiting reward.. but nothing happens.. may be u need to wait a liitle more.. or may be u need to put little more efforts.. or ....may be .......its the expectation for the reward which will sow seeds for disappointments later or i m not sure...to dissect this mess
on a different note lets view this ....you walk by the road, giving no trouble wat so ever to any fellows.. on your way to reach the destination..out of the blue like a blot ,u are hit by a car from behind by a speeding metal junk lost control due to a tyre run flat by running over a slumbering stone driven by a drunken moron... as u wake up in the ward of an unknown infirmary, u seem to wonder.. was it the mistake of you? or was it the moron who drove that rumbling metal over that stone or was it the stone itself the reason u r here..... u never know.. but one thing is sure.. it wasnt ur fault...the fate as i know is ..... it made u walk that road.. made that moron to run the car and hit u.... but its the same fate that has given u the hope again.. u could have been sent to cemetery but fate sent u to this ward...now this challenges u to have hope and move on...and this my friend is wat i consider the fate... fate that gives us hope and challenges us to view life as a never ending struggle to survive against odds come wat may... enough bragging abt hope and fate in this.. conserving for next i guess...

So... u think a blog that does not talk anything clear and is written by a confounded mind has made u waste time??? u wonder wat fate made u go through this blog?? tats fate my friend ....fate as i say,..always triumphs..so long mate...!

As the saying goes.. "THIS HAPPENS TO ALL !!! " DAMN IT Doesnt !

Its pretty amazing to think how my spirits were high enough to even think abt happiness and write my first blog...yes it was....sometimes i think how easily some say """ come on man!!!.. dont live in past... see the future???... ok i agreee..... nothing is going to change thinking abt past.. Time to move on Buddy!!!... but.. for how long can a person stay spirited thinkin some good oppurtunity is on the way.. so its good experience to have the failure... think of the failure as an oppurtunity to move on....blah blah blah......

Sometimes its often witnessed that some ppl almost always get things done their way.. be it anyting... as smooth as hot knife in butter... my sincere request .. FORGOT THOSE *******......
But it never was the case with me or at least till now... I do think there is some problem in myself for how long can a person be blaming FATE for all ill happenings?...come on.. it has to be something with my fate of course as many things in life as i have seen so far arent in our hands... FATE has it all..!!! I always think that expectations bring disappointments .. I think i had many of those to have experienced many disappointments.. every new one teaches me a lesson.. be it friendship or TRUST that i usually fall pray to....of course i m talking of the disappointments i have walked along into my life....


It makes me think sometimes that a calm mind is wat i need to think better.. think of the future.. wat has happened was never in my hand.. so move on....... but it has been a difficult one to maintain.... mind never sleeps i guess.. thats y v get dreams too even if the body sleeps... calm minds are the best pocession one can have... notice the MINDS that i have used.. its that one v show the world and other v r ashamed of or more secretive v discuss less of......may be i need to substitute v with ME....but watever..

By this time someone like you who has taken time to read this bullshit would have noticed that i write blog to let off some steam in me.. things that i guess should be shared with someone.. obviously i m not in a perfect spirit now to share. so i write blog.. some way to make my mind calm...i write wat i feel good abt.. not for promos or for the fun of it.... may be now i feel little better having spent some time thinking out of the box...Hmmm... now u think y u read this.... but again .. watever!!

My pursuit of happYness

Many a times i ve been reduced to tears watching the movie "The Pusuit of HappYness" The happiness as i have learnt till now is like a butterfly.. If u go chasing it ,it will evade u.. but once u stop chasing. it ll come sit silently on ur shoulders... My pursuit of happiness started the moment i was born..
With this i start my first blog ......My pursuit of happYness,,,,,,